Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Strange but true realization

Today 28th September, time 12:06 AM. I don’t have any particular reason to write this article but still I am writing this. I don’t know how I can explain the sufferings of my entire family during the last few months and the way we are suffering still now. We don’t even have any idea about when the bad time will come to an end. Our beloved ketis has left our house with sona and sanjeeb. It is almost impossible (I’m possible… that is why I have written almost impossible) to forget the moment I spend with my lil angel, my ketis (She is my elder sis’s daughter). In the last 6.5years I always tried to love her, tried to take good care of her. Last 10 days I was unable to have a glimpse of ketis. Somehow I have separated myself from my own world. I don’t even enjoy spending time with my best friend, my brother, my college mates, other friends, though I love them a lot. I, stopped watching my favorite cartoons, stopped watching the CD of my marriage. I, feel like crying, feel like shouting but tears are not coming out anymore (tanki khatam hogaya shayed :P). I am missing my husband but I have no other options but to stay away from him for a better future ( beti present ke bare mi bhi to kabhi socha kar :P). I stopped liking delicious foods, oh yes I used to be a foodie :P. After reading these lines you can easily understand that I am not feeling well. Just praying to Goddess Durga , Maa please show me the way. Campusing is nearby, it will be better to not to talk about my preparation.

Now, the thing which I want to share with you all, oye itni zaldi kya hain?? By the way it may give you a huge shock or you can feel like that I’m insane, maybe I am. Whatever, in these days the only program, which has helped me to laugh for 4.5 hrs/week and helped me to forget about all unpleasant experiences of life for a few moment, is none other than Mirakkel 6. No no I am not writing this to promote mirakkel (oh man, I’m a student of marketing management). I like to give a big thanks to Mir, the anchor of mirakkel 6. His jokes, his attitude, his insanity have inspired me to fight. While talking about Mir, suddenly a thought strikes my mind. I will like to share the thought with you all. Once a gay friend (friend is a little word to describe the depth our relationship) of mine said that Mir is very cheap artist. The person who is inspiring me in this crucial situation, how can he be a cheap artist? He said mimicry is a cheap art, Mir doesn’t have any originality. The person who has the ability to make people laugh even when they are going through a very bad phase of life, does we the average common people even have the right to judge his art? How can an art be cheap? Being a very average person with a very average IQ level I am unable to find answers of these questions.

Then he said that the way Mir imitates Rituparno is not right. Mir imitates Rituparno, Anjan Dutta, P.C. Sircar, Gautam Ghosh and many other famous artists. Then what is the reason behind Rituparno’s reactions? Answer: because he is gay. I don’t even know a proper word which can express the enormous talent of Rituparno Ghosh. Sir, we all are very proud of you. I want to ask a question to you. Why are you always thinking that you belong to a minority section? You are a complete human being with great thoughts; you are idol of many homosexual guys. After reaching that level, after getting these amount of respect ( after Satyajit Ray I think no one in tollywood have received these amount of respect) if you still feel you belong to a minority group and if you still feel insecure then what will happen to the gay society who have just started expressing their own identity? Don’t do this, give them courage. Tell them that they are one of us. Being a girl in male dominated society I also have faced some problems. Yes, we don’t belong to a minority group, but majority of us are still suffering but we don’t mind when people crack jokes about us, we don’t mind when people mock about our intelligence. If it hurts us we will prove them in the practical field, we are not going to shout anymore and many of us have proved that we are as good as a man, in some cases we are superior than a man (don’t consider physical strength for God’s sake, if you are doing the same please let me know, I will add one more paragraph to this article about the mental strength of us). Why doesn’t the homosexual society try to do the same? At least I’m with you. Why don’t you consider yourself as a sufferer then you can claim yourself as the majority of our society.

Mir, you are wonderful person no doubt, but when a person is asking you to not to imitate him then why are you doing the same? Why are you doing the same even after knowing that many people are suffering for the same? You are a sensible person; these activities do not suit you. I’m a big big big fan of yours so when people say anything against you that hurt me. There are many people in the society who are still not enough grown up to digest homosexuality. After seeing your mimicry they are misinterpreting it and teasing gays. So, I will be very happy if you stop imitating Rituparno. When Karan Johar in KHNH made some scene full of humor that does not hurt the gay society in the way your activity hurting them because Karan Johar is a gay and you are a proud father of a beautiful lil girl. So, only gays have the right to mock regarding their sensitive issues?

Sunday, November 7, 2010

BHAI PHONTA

Subho bhainphonta.. I think all of you have enjoyed a lot in this special day. Though I have no one to give phonta, as I don’t have bro( if u consider blood relation only). But a call from far away to my beloved city and a card from my beloved bro have made my day.

You may laugh at, but whenever any special day arrives, I can feel the specialty in the nature, different smell in the air, different rhythm in my ears. Today all my mamas(maternal uncle) n pisi (paternal aunty), some of my cousins and nephews visited our house. And oh God, we laughed through out the day. Watching them fighting, making laugh of each other, I felt they are still very young, specially my dearest Maa. Plenty of food were made by manta( my mejo pisi) n maa. Also we bought food from Manti (haha), that good old restro of tollygunge. Well, you can wholeheartedly praise it as it is the secret behind my well shaped figure.. (haha). Boromama is suffering from cancer, counting his days, but still trying his level best to crack jokes, n tried a lot to make everyone happy and on the other hand maa was trying to hide her tears. Which make me proud of being a member of this Ghatak family is my pisis were also crying seeing my boromama. God, Thank a lot for sending me here.. Through out the day we spoke in Bangal.. Trust me I’m really really very good in bangal, well, am thinking of putting it in my cv , i.e. I can speak fluently the national language of Bangladesh. What say? and kuttu’s behavior made me feel YESssssssssssssss. As she collected flowers for her dadus which was not known to us. Great strange feeling. Btw kuttu is my didi’s daughter, a girl of 5 ½ years. Well my friends, this is the very difference between a joint family and a nuclear family. Gosh, these B-Tech and MBA courses have made me half mad!!! Here also I’m thinking about GD topic. Frust. Haha.

And this day is not special enough to get rid of something, haha becoz I don’t wanna get rid from that. Missed you a lot my better-half. While having good bangali khabar I was thinking about you. Yes I’m crazy about you. And love to be the same. No more today. And once again sorry for mistakes..

Thursday, October 7, 2010

YEH MERI HAIN KAHANI...

Hi! I’m Arpita. I think if you are a reader of my blog then you must know that I’m a very simple person with simple demands. Generally in my blog I post my poems, well some of them I know are very very poor, but as blogspot is providing me the space so I’m utilizing it as much as possible. I don’t publish all the poems here, specially, the poems which I write for Swagato ( my better half) I don’t publish them. Well now I will like to share about my life, which is once again very monotonous and simple, so in the beginning I’m warning you don’t don’t don’t go through this writing because after reading it you will tell “pura bakwas hain yaar…” and if you are still reading it then don’t blame me. 19th march, 1987 I came to this world, and met my Mom and others relatives. The family was pretty big at that time. In my family I had my MAA, baba, Sona (my elder sister), amma (who is no more in this world, but we still talk about in different occasions), Bapisi (in bangla Bah means good and it was quite difficult for a child to utter bahpisi so it became bapisi..), then sonapisi( she gave my elder sister’s nickname, “Sona” and for this very reason we call her sonapisi) and her family consisting 7 members. So a big family indeed. I didn’t wasted much time to utter my first word and it was- “lajalam”.. not getting what is it? If you are an Indian then you must know the song “Raghupati raghav rajaram”.. my father used to sing this song sitting by my side.. so I tried to utter the word “rajaram” which resulted in “lajalam”.. and being a very very religious family everyone was very happy. Well in my opinion I used to be a quite obedient girl. After 1yr Gudda came into this world. He is my first friend ( amar pistotodadar chele). We created a world of fantasy and we used play a lot, and also fight a lot, sona was our leader. I used to be a good student. The school was quite good. It was a Bengali medium school but the standard of English was as same as English taught in any good English medium at that time. Gudda went to NavaNalanda, my father didn’t want to send me in navanalanda due to the distance. Then in class 5 I was admitted into sir nripendranath girls’ high school which was a very old govt undertaken Bengali medium school.. in the first class we were asked to write a,b,c,d which made me laugh, infact many of my classmates struggled a lot to write this and even some were unable to write this, it was strange to me. So from class 5 I stopped to learn or read English because the knowledge which I already had was fair enough to score a good mark in that school. My readers, my friends, my family, it is known to everyone that I’m poor in English and now you can easily understand the cause behind this condition. In fact even in this writing you can find many many mistakes, please ignore. Well if our respected Narayan Murthy in his book can make so many grammatical mistakes, should I be very ashamed for my mistakes??? (Now I can understand why I got a job in Infosys Haha).. well language is a medium to express one’s thoughts and ideas, and if you can understand my writing clearly, then I have good communication skill isn’t it? Well I had few friends but still family was my first and last priority. I was good in maths (atleast I think so, and for this somehow I managed to complete my b-tech n somehow I managed to get admission in a quite good b-school). I had a good voice, so I used to participate in both singing and recitation competition (both intra and inter school competition) and I got several prizes. But don’t know why I quit recitation!!! Still I remember how my teachers inspired me. I can remember satidi (in govt Bengali medium school there is culture to call your teacher didi i.e. sister), our physics teacher, made some delicious food as I went with her in a competition in another school. So there the situation is like if I feel hungry and if the school didn’t provide any food by any chance then it will quench my appetite. Almost all the teachers loved me a lot and I think some of them love me a lot till now. Thanks to God that I participated in singing competition otherwise I couldn’t know swatidi so well, she is someone in front of whom you can’t lie, in front of whom your head automatically move downwards in respect. I like to do social works and she influences me in this case. By the way here I’m not discussing about my family members and relatives otherwise this passage will never come to end. If I start writing about my Maa it can make a book. She is the best maa in the world. She is a sweetheart and a very very good friend of mine my hamraaz.. and here I need to mention about M.C. a few a very few student of our school used to like her because she was very strict, but now a days, she is basically a good friend of mine, I can bet no student of my school cant even guess what I discuss with her everything starting from my boy friend appo. And many more teachers who made me, “ME”. Don’t think that I consider myself as a very glorified figure, by “Me” I meant simple person with simple demand. Students of our school never managed to be the fatty rat in the rat race. Some of them are not interested in this rat race, you know even if you win the rat race you are still a rat. But maximum of them are good human beings with good morals and ethical values which I feel very very rare in today’s world. In our school many students are so poor that they didn’t even have proper food to survive. And by seeing their faces our didis could easily recognize who didn’t have a proper lunch and they used to share their tiffin and give 50 100 rs whenever it is needed. What more do you expect from a school. Wonderful teachers who don’t teach to earn only money but to share their knowledge and to make good human beings. Kudos to you all. Specially swatidi. Life is full of ups and downs. Before class 8 I was a book-worm. Be it school books or story books, I just love to read. But some incidents change you totally, I stopped studying and became a average student, but neither my family nor the teachers stop loving me. And from this time I became very serious about friendship. In my entire school life I had many friends but some of them are friend for life. They are suparna, nibe and srotosree. Many mishap can happen between us but at the end of the day we still are good friends. And here I especially like to talk about someone who taught me the meaning of friendship who inspired me to write letters, otherwise I never knew I can write, she is none other than Nibe. Thanks buddy. She is crazy. She used to fight for smallest reasons and used to forgive me easily for my big mistakes. And used to fight with me even for other’s mistakes. Hehe. It was very very nice to be your friend. Well at that time I was very freckle minded regarding my best friend, actually these 3 were so very close to my heart I was a bit confused to find out who is my best friend. And suparna is such a sweet heart she forgave me for every mistake I made, a very very sweet bubbly personality. But finally I discovered my best friend after some jhamelas, kechals and it was nibe, but as I was very confused after every week I told one that you are my best friend and then next week 2nd one that you are my best friend, actually I don’t have any other options to maintain a peaceful life, but nibe when I told you that you are my best friend I was never confused after that. Life was going pretty well. I somehow got star marks in madhyamik which I feel maximum people used to get in madhyamik in our time, and then made a total mess in HS sorry cant share my marks with you. :P Horrible. I liked chemistry but due to migraine it was not possible for me to take this stream I gave joint for fun as everyone I know from science background gave joint so I did, without taking a minimum preparation and managed to get electrical in Meghnad Saha Institute Of Technology. In the mean time I got another friend, who was very close to my heart, till this time I never had such close friend who is boy, that is the disadvantage behind studying in a girls’ school.hehe. Though I had a crush in class 10 is was my first crush obviously at that time I considered it as a serious love, and thought many things which are making me laugh now. Well this friend proposed me many time and finally I do agreed it was my first love relation and was very dedicated so stop studying, and started enjoying teenage life fullest with my boy friend, and in college also I had some good friend .In 1st year I was committed, I’m telling about my college friend after completing this episode. After 3yrs of deep friendship and 6 months of relationship finally it came to an end. My sunsign is pieces by which you can easily guess I’m emotional and imagination is my passion. So a big jerk in my life. But thanks my friend thanks a lot as it was a must needed breakup, which made me a better human being and gave me an opportunity to meet my swagato . well in college payel was my first friend, man we share same frequency. Great. Then anusree promita and abhijeet and many more many many. They supported me a lot in my break up recovery. But puddy tat break up is fine but what about my dreams my imagination!! Well in the mean time anusree came into my life. You cant even imagine, we are simply opposite, had many many big fights. Dunno why but I really love her a lot. Hehe . and finally now she is a part of my life my best friend. Such a sweetheart, innocent. Whenever I feel bad I call her. She is with me with every moments. She is like a part of my family. I love you so much sweetheart. Promita is a sweet girl, we to had some jhogras but those are mainly one sided hehe she used to shout and I used to hear, hehe. What a college life. Kudos msit. Then my love swagato, he is netfriend of mine. You can say rab ne banadi Jodi, it is a big co incident that we are committed, a miracle, you know he was not like the person for whom I was waiting , far far away from my imagination. Beware before making relationship with pieces, so so much emotional and imaginative very tough to handle. But he proved to be much more better than my imagination. You made my life. I’m incomplete without you, your love, your care, your pampers. He is a very talented person, a good student, a good writer, good in dramatics, recitation, photography, moreover a very down to earth person and a good human being indeed. Why I’m telling him a down to earth person will be discussed after sometimes. My school and college life was just as per my imagination, I faced many problems in my life but not telling you because already it is too lengthy and boring and I don’t want to share my problems with all of you. Don’t mind. :P in the mean time kuttu (sona’s daughter ) came into our life. Now she is a girl of 5+. She makes our life full of colours. I love her like anything. And trust me can do anything for her, she is just like my own daughter. Well now I’m in iiswbm, a good institute indeed, but totally different from my imagination. Msit became so close to my heart because of my friends. The institute is fine enough, I don’t have any vital complain against it. Obviously being a student like every other students I also know the pros n cons of this institute but I like some of the prof very much.So, the problem is in my expectations regarding the people. I thought that here we are coming to be a manager so the people are more sensible, ethical, group player, humble. But sorry friend some of them are really snob, though I know some of friends are really good I’m not telling them , as you r my friend you know that I’m not telling this to you.. so ignore. And ethics, I find it rare, though our respected beloved arin sir put many effort to teach us, we learn it through notes and books to score a good marks and nothing else. Managers are renowned for taking good decisions and for taking a good decision you must know the versions of two sides, but they don’t have that time to waste. People don’t think twice before taking advantage. I’m not telling that I’m miss perfect, I’ll tell about my –ve qualities in my next writing, but I think I’m far better than them seriously, and time will prove it. I’m not going to score better than them. As I’m not a very good student as I mentioned previously and secondly it is not so important to me. I’ll be happy by scoring an avg marks. I told that I will explain you about why I described swagato as down to earth, because after coming here 1st time I realized how people are proud of their academics, I have friends in iims, iits, one of my bro is in California university pursuing his phd, I never ever find this arrogance in them. Again I’m writing that not all are in this way but some of them are really very very arrogant. I know time will teach them a good lesson. But some of them are really talented funny some of them have crystal clear heart, some has beautiful voice. In msit if someone knows something he immediately showed it to all of us and didn’t even mention it once that he copied from me. But here the scene is a bit different. Haha. But as I have some good friends over here I can manage to pass these 2 years but am worried about those people who are going to work under these super arrogant, snob, foul mouthed pigs. God save them!! But I can also see some good managers in my institute who feel for others. Well now my boy friend is in Bangalore, so I’m missing him a lot. About anusree I need to add something more, through anusree I came in touch with abhisek, my bro, my birthsake :P .I love you a lot bro. I love the way you care for me. I love the way you write. And obviously I got a second house for you anusree hehe.. that is your house, didi such a sweet person kakima kaku, everyone. Well that is all. No more today. I need to take rest.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Chandra Bihar

boye cholche amader nouka kachei chader bari
nouka chorei amra dujone debo sethai pari
bhese jache sara ganga surer mayajwale
janina abar akhane asha hobe konkale
aro kichu mahurtya royeche akhono banki
jachi mora jachi bhese sobaike diye fanki

Pakhiraj e chepe

chol jabo aj bikele tepantorer mathe
ekta pakhirajke nebo amaderi sathe
pakhiraj urbe mele diye dana
ja khusi tai korbi tui korbena keu mana

Saturday, August 28, 2010

AMI TUMI R RUPKOTHA ...

vulbo sob bishad bilash, asbe jobe tumi,
apolak r nirobe bose, roibo cheye ami,
bolbe mon tumi chara thaka boro dai,
matha bolbe sarasari tui nirupai,
upai nei tabolei ki sadh jagena mone?
akul pathar monta bhabe, tomai pabo kotokhane?
bastober ei nithur bani lage na r bhalo,
rupkatha tumi nijer moto premer prodip jwalo.
cholo mele dana periye jai tepantorer math,
paridi dujonete mile swapner pothghat,
saath sumudrure santareo mora khanto hobona,
barche boyesh, baruk jotoi, ami shanto hobona....

Monday, July 7, 2008

BHALOBASA KARE KOI!!




Bhalobasa, ek adbhut anubhuti,
Bhalobasa, tomar kora anek protisruti,
Bhalobasa mane bolte paro thik ki?
Aj sandhyebelai ai niye anek bhebechi…
Aboseshe ratri ase
Chupi chupi kaner kache,
Bollo hese “ boka meye janona bhalobasa mane ki??”
Bollam na go kujhchi sei uttar,
Bollo se mridu sware
“uttar khojo du-chok bujhe….”
Chokh bujhe uttar khujte giye dekhi
Amar dike takiye hascho tumi bose akaki……

KICHU NA BOLA KATHA

KICHU NA BOLA KATHA
TOMAR RATJAGA TARA